I am concerned about alienating people, though. Raw despair isn't exactly "selling yourself", nor is flailing anger. It's what I've got, and it's true, and I can't really avoid communicating it. That's not who I am, though. It's who I'm crawling out of, with whatever strength I can dig up.
No doubt part of my sense that I'm losing friends is due to an understandable flinch away from someone who's having a hard time and not hiding it.
Good thing the cat doesn't care, eh?